I don't know 'till when I live in this world, oh Allah? But now I am 19 and 1 day-years old. A year where is a last year for me as a girl in 1-something years old. Thankyou so much, Allah, yesterday was my greatest celebrated day of birth.

Yesterday was also my first day to pass my birthday without my beloved family. Without mama, daddy, and my brotha-sista. I was in my lovely boarding house. Almost 3 months I have to live in there. Every night being a solitary night for me.

My classmates, my close friends, my longtime friends (friends of mine lah!) said "Happy birthday, and blablaa blaa *yaa, 'bout their wishes I must going to be". But not for someone. A man that his behavior affected me and change my life. That man, usually I call *Daewoong-ah*

Someday before, I had a bad communication between us. He did what I dislike thing. We are team in some classes of Math, but he didn't do anything to help me and other fellows of our tim, to finished our task--our task, baby!. Then I told him that I hate to be join in a team with him. He apologized and I forgiving.

I think the problem just clear. But why I feel Daewoong is keeping one's distance between us? Until my birthday, he didn't said something to me like last year. I am very sad. Daewoong-ah?! What happen with you? You are the one I've been waiting for. Even it's too late.

Daewoong-ah, I am sorry to made you sad. You are not the one to blame. I apologize. You are the one I love, although I know many girls do the same. I also know that you loved other girl that she's more beautiful than me. I've read your chatbox with every girl so I know it. Ya, yaa... you forgot to log out when you logged in of your facebook account at my daddy's laptop. Oh! our relationship is close, isn't this?

The day I pass without mama, daddy, brotha-sista, and you. No one the gift I got.

But I forgot something. I am not alone. Here, in my boarding house, I have a little family :) nearly 10 p.m on Oct 14th, 2014, they brought a sweets brownies with chocolate strawberry-bananas flavor into my room with beauty 19 number candles. My favorite one!!

There are Nuril, Tiwi, Sri, mbak Ai and her friend, the gang of Happy-birthday the series in Dinavilly :) All of you are I love more than ever. Thankyouso, honeeyyyy! You make my day be beautiful.

Here's some photo we took at the moment



'till the next post :)

I apologize.

Hari ini seseorang telah sukses membuatku menangis tanpa air mata (haa? Abaikan!). Mulai dari kelas geometri tadi pagi, aku dituduh nyontek. Yang jelas sekali dosennya tahu kalau aku tidak pernah nyontek. Yayaaa, bu dosen hanya ingin pengakuan dari temanku yang lembar jawaban quiznya *persis, sekali lagi, *persis dengan apa yang aku tulis di lembar jawabanku. Kelas geometri akhirnya selesai kulewati dengan cukup lega, karena aku memang terbukti tidak nyontek.

Yang lebih membuatku letih adalah KRS ku yg terlambat ditandatangani oleh bu dosen PA. Namun itupun ada alasan yang jelas mengapa aku terlambat konsultasi. Meski demikian, sayangnya aku tidak bisa menyampaikan alasan itu. Aku sempat disuruh minta izin Kaprodi, bolehkah KRSku ditandatangani?

God, I'm a helpless :'(

Dengan wajah memelas kasih, aku dapatkan tandatangan bu PA ku sayang namun bersyarat. Syarat tèrindah bagiku untuk hal yang sangat penting ini--yakkk, syaratnya adalah bikin surat perjanjian yang isinya sejenis janji gitu deh. *okesip, abaikan saja bagian ini.

Seseorang yang membuatku kesusahan seperti ini adalah aku. Aku. Dan aku. Aku menyesal dan aku merasa bodoh. I am foolish and lazygirl.